NaNoWriMo

I have heard of this little novel writing thingy majig (I'm usine the technical terms here) a few years back, in grade eight I believe. It was at this little writing seminar/tutorial at the local library where the woman who was overseeing the whole thing told us about NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month). It's where people from around the globe attempt to write a 50,000 word novel by the end of November (Starting on November 1st). I was in too big of a writer's block to take part that year and it just slipped from my mind into darkness. Until a week ago when I read someone's blog on this site. They reminded me of what the woman had said about it. So I figured I would give it a shot this year, ya know, since I'm not in as much of a writer's block. Wish me luck! I need it. I might only get about 100 words don'e..but at least I'll try.

Tooo many answers...

"Why do we exist?" This question has plagued human beings for centuries. There are way too many answers that people have come up with. Some people even dedicate their whole lives to this one question. Some have just trown out a gumble of words just so they can get on with actually living. I have too many ideas about it. We exist to question, to take up space...we exist simply to exist. Someoen a few years ago in my grade 7 class said that the meaning of life is sex. There's no denying it. It's plausible. Sex gives you the most pleasure and replenishes the species. Uhg... it could be that the meaning is that we have to be confused about the meaning..damnit. I hate this topic. It's confusing. Although..it does make a good conversation when people are silent for a time.

What do you think?

Aspirations

I want to be an animator. I've already contacted a school in Vancouver (Vancouver Film School) for information on their classical animation course. I must want it real bad if I'm willing to go away for a year to do the course....or even go away forever. Well...if I do become an animator, there are things that I have to give up. It is my dream and you have to let things go to accomplish your dreams. It pretty much sucks that I'll have to leave my friends, have to leave the comfort of home and venture into unknown territory, leave the safety of Newfoundland, my little island home. I want it. But...is what I want...really worth the things that I have to do to get it?
My brother usually makes this stupid joke about what he learned in his university physics course. He tells me almost every night, "Jessica, if you want to gain immortality...you have to kill a hundred babies." Of course we both just laugh it off....and then..I started to think about it. It some strange context..what he said was true (not in the way you're probably thinking). It's like this, if you want to be remembered, if you want to get what you truely desire, you have to do some things that might not agree with certain things in your life. In the way I'm thinking, "killing a hundred babies" could mean "leaving all the things that you worked so hard for in the first place" just to gain what you want. Now...there aren't people going around killing babies to gain immortality, but there are people that leave what they are accustom to to gain something they desire.
I'm not entirely sure if I want immortality enough to kill children. I really...really need help with this. I'm just contridicting myself when I think about the pros and cons of going away to get what I want. There's an equal amount of both. I'm horrible at decisions.